Tuesday, June 21, 2011

and if you never arrive...

it's been a rough few weeks. a time of change, moving on and letting go, simultaneously crying and laughing at attempts from friends and loved ones to cheer you up. tears of deepest sadness and of hope, coming in waves in between reminiscing and drowning sorrows in reality tv and chocolate. ever have moments like these?

life is a rollercoaster, friends. 

21 is a tough age, too, i think. it's a time in life when possibilities are endless, but when immaturity and simply being naive tend to leave you with no logical place to turn. i love to learn, but sometimes learning hurts and leaves you with a pervasive and relentless aching in your heart and soul. and unfortunately my time of learning isn't over yet, and likely won't be for quite some time. youth is beautiful but it's unpredictable, and for my part i think i could get used to some stability and the clarity of mind that seems only to come with age and with experience. 

do you ever wish you knew it all? 
i do.

soon i'll have to suck it up, get back on the horse and move forward in strength and courage...
but for now, i think i'll wallow in my weakness a little bit longer.



xo

No comments:

Post a Comment